The night is my ally. It is during the night I am at my best.
The night allows my imagination to soar.
I fancy living the life of a castaway. Well I am not that far off.
Within the confinement of CCC, I can explore what's within me.
I don't have any care in the world. I just want to live my own fantasy.
I want to sleep, run, eat, write, repeat.
I'm not build for a relationship. It is best for Sarah to be doing something else tha[t] be with me.
Given a choice I'll pack my bag and just sail away.
In a sense, I am a selfish guy. Not that I don't care for others. God knows I love Sarah, Lizzie and the kids with all my heart. However, I have this deep desire to be on my own.
I need to talk to myself more than I want to talk to other people. I am my own best friend.
People can hurt. Things can't. - John Paul Getty.
Sarah had helped me much but it's not fair for her to hangout with me. I cannot offer her anything.
It's OK, she will always be my Eternal Flame. Of all the relationships that I had, I will remember her's the most.
However beyond this point I walk alone. Not because I hate her but because I love her so much. I don't want her to waste her life away. I got her Heart of Gold. She is my Prisoner of Eternal Love.
Whenever I think of her, I can always go back to Sharudin the Hermit and Conversation with Sarah 2019.
Well, I better end here. A parting thought, if you love somebody set her free. If she comes back then she is yours forever.
Hmmm... At least now I know who is the love songs are meant for.
Dear Sarah, my darling wife, my angel sent from above, my light in the dark, my Eternal Flame; this song is for you:
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