Anyway Sarah, I love to do some biological experiments on you. For example how long does it take for your nipple to harden if I put an ice cube on it? How long can you stand the cold?
Or what is the feeling if I foam and shave your arm pit?
Or how would you react if I put a 9 volts battery in between your clit after I lick it hard?
Those sort of things.
I am a very curious person when comes to increasing sensations to a woman (I didn't say pleasure).
I imagine if I am Caligula, I would have a special chamber to explore the woman's body.
I don't like to inflict pain. I am more keen to accentuate ecstasy through different modes of stimulation. I am a naturally curious person when comes to "torturing" women.
My favorite tool is the Caesar (derived from scissors). It will be a pretty awesome experience once you try it:
Now how's that for speaking my mind? Am I a chauvinist? You betcha. I like to dominate. You see, while doing all these I like to tie your hands at the back and gag your mouth with a bandanna (I haven't done that before).
I will never blindfold your eyes because the eyes tell the story. I make sure the eyes roll over until I [] whites LMAO.
I am not so much into fucking. I simply love giving pleasure. Women are my playthings.
You know what I like the most? Seeing a woman come. I love to see how many times can a woman come. Lizzie is not a comer. That is so frustrating. She is not a performer either.
I bet you are one of those icy princess too. Most intelligent women are. The best Gayshas are the one who do it not so much because of money but because they really enjoy sex. Jessica, although she let me come in her mouth don't let me lick her pussy until she comes. She likes to serve but she doesn't like being served.
That took away half the pleasure.
My best fucks were my last two fucks. That's because I'm beginning to learn how to suck the clit. That seemed to be the hot button with women. Not just lick but you must suck. Oh, what a feeling seeing a woman bucked underneath your face.
Of course the waves of spasm across the body was incredible. That is the highlight really. Not the fucking. It is the clitoral orgasm that got me hooked. Not the vaginal orgasm. In some cases the latter made my dick felt like it was being clamped.
One *[] [] best contraction[] I ever had was in Penang. The Gaysha can actually controlled her vaginal muscle when I came. It was artificial but my point is, you can control your vagina like any other muscles.
Brb...
* Hmmm... Sooo I do make you horny huh? Is it just moist or you panties is already soaking wet?
You love these dirty little talks aren't you? OK then after Mopey is done with her study leave, why not we engage into a cyber sex, then I play with myself and we come together?
You like that? The other day was really incredible. I shot loads of wads that nearly reached my face. I don't know if I ever come like that again. That was really something. Normally I have to stimulate my cock to make it hard. That one was already throbbing hard even before I started.
Pure brutal sex baby.
Hey you know something. I am telling you all these because you are my wife and my most trusted best friend. I only talked like this (not even close) to Ameezan. That what we brothers talked about anyway; our sexual excursions.
You know I don't mean any disrespect. You want me to speak my mind. So this is me. This is who I am on a normal day. I am very frank. That's what you want isn't it? You want to know all my thoughts. So I give it all to you.
Remember what I said before; don't drink alcohol and wash yourself after business. That's all I ask from you. You want to fuck your husband that is you personal choice.
If you ask me, I say go solo. You are married to me. Your heart and body are mine now. I did the same thing. Other than Pornhub, there is no one else. So the things I asked you to do are things I am willing to do myself.
I don't expect you to divorce him but I get jealous if I know you are still fucking him. Still I'm not going to hold that against you.
All I'm saying is I can be pretty selfish when comes to my Tetrahedron. I want all of you to myself. I don't mind my kids remain single and stay with me forever. This is a perfect life for me; 4 aces.
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What are we becoming Sarah? For all I know, all those are really typo errors. There is nobody on the other side. This is where faith comes handy. I believe you exist. Even if you are just my Blog having glitches.
That's how much influence you have on my life. What did you say? 14 years you had been tailing me? That's a long time baby. If we have a kid, that kid is a middle school teenager.
It made me realize that you are a very devoted and committed woman. You deserve to be my wife for good and for bad honey.
Well you made me God. What else can I ask from a wife? Even Lizzie only made me king. Nobody ever love me as much as you do. My mom made me a genius. You top it all honey. Do you realize that?
Sigh... I wish my mom is a more loving mother. Then again she gave her love to Rohaizad and turned out he is just a dope shit. But then everything happens for a reason. Because he is a pot head, the wife divorced him . Ergo, he now is the only one eligible to take care of the parents.
So everybody gets what they deserve. In my case, I won the Golden Ticket. What am I complaining about?
You know what Sarah? I can never get the kind of love a person get from his mother. I realized that when I went back last holiday. She expected the children to provide nursing care for her and my dad. She kept on hinting the high cost of nursing old folks.
What can I do? I am not in the position to even care for myself. Their hope is only with Ameezan monetarily. With my family it's always about money. The very reason why I stopped going back to see them for 6 years was because I had no money. At that time they all were better off.
For fear that I might troubled them with money issues, they just ousted me. Plus at that time my grandma was no longer around. So I don't have any reason to visit any of them.
My parents are really terrible people when comes to treating me. It makes me wonder if I was a child out of wedlock. That had been at the back of my head since they were married without representation and I was sent to live with my grandma since I was a toddler.
Who in the right mind sent away their first born baby to be raised by the grandmother and then had another child who is 3 years apart?
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I don't care anymore. They should be nice to me when I was small. Now it's kinda like having familiar strangers around. Seriously Sarah, I wish they die sooner so that I don't have to go back every Hari Raya.
This Hari Raya there were plenty of food because Ameezan and family did not gobble up everything before we arrive. This year they went back a little late because the son, Mikhail a 23 years old lame duck cannot take leave on the Hari Raya. Otherwise by the second Hari Raya we were left with remnants of what the other family cannot finish.
So this year there was plenty of lemang because those piranhas didn't finish everything before us. We didn't eat them because we had enough on the first Hari Raya.
I want you to see Sarah, that because my parents failed as parents, the family unit become disintegrated. For example Ameezan didn't greet me until I send him a greeting. What a dick. You know why? Because as an "alpha" he should not do it. What makes him an alpha? Because he makes more money than I do.
Tell me [me] Sarah, he an alpha wasted RM70 k on a Russian gold digger so that he had the girl friend experience (GFE) for 3 months. Alpha my ass. For RM70 k I would have fucked 70 pussies from 70 nationalities while having the vacation of a lifetime.
Not only that, he will pursue pussies, buy them expensive gifts, had their photos in his phone and don't fuck them. He is just a dork with money. His sons are the Dumb and Dumber.
All this while it was me who try to establish the friendship. I used to buy dope through him when his son smoked. But when the boy stopped, I can no longer buy any from him. He won't do it because that was no longer his by the way kind of thing with me.
So anytime you think I am fucked up, my brothers are pieces of shit.
I think my sister is not that bad. She is not that stuck up with me but I don't care about her either. She and Rohaizad blew away my mother's money until my mom had nothing left. So I wrote her off as a spoil brat.
You know what? All because my parents picked favorites. So as the "grandma's favorite grandson"; a title Ameezan gave me, I don't give a fuck anymore. I stopped giving a fuck since 2014 when I was in the ward for one month and they actually talked about visiting me but NONE came. Instead they went to visit my cousin who was warded for having diabetes.
My auntie complained to my mother that I had stopped visiting her. Out of courtesy I still went to visit my uncle in the ward and recently to celebrate Hari Raya with her. The rest just put deaf ears especially Ameezan, the "alpha male".
So I maybe a dickhead too but that's because I have to put up with a very dysfunctional family.
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Hey Sarah, you think you can handle my dark side now? It cannot get [] darker than this although it did. But I'm not going to take you further. Sufficient if I say I am a pretty fucked up person.
So now you regret me being frank? What if I say these are all that made me who I am? The 4964 Forever Yin & Yang Forever? Now you believe?
Geez Sarah, you don't know how it felt not being loved by your own mother and being beaten
*[m]y your father. As I said, I am fortunate I am smart. I know how to survive. But if my biggest crime was stealing, my social flaw is I am a leech. I am a parasite Sarah. I learned that when I was 13.
* Wow, really Sarah? I'm sorry to hear that.
I'm not proud of it but like many of those poor folks out there, I am an opportunist. So leeching was a social skill evolved out of necessity.
Heck Sarah, I telling you all these so that [] can hate me for who I am. I want you to love me because I am a generous giver but I also want you to hate me because I am also a ruthless taker.
Didn't I take you away from your chastity? Now because of me you are no longer innocent. Remember when we first about to know each other? You loath the idea that I said the most beautiful pussy belonged to an Indonesian Gaysha?
You remember this photo?
Well, at that time I already raped your mind. You are no longer an innocent observer, you are now an assailant. Do you realize that?
Tell me [me] Sarah, he an alpha wasted RM70 k on a Russian gold digger so that he had the girl friend experience (GFE) for 3 months.
That is how I take your innocence. That is my accomplishment for the day.
So Sarah, I am a heart of gold collector, but I also make good girls go bad.
Every man has a dark side honey. The more docile the person the more intimidating are his thoughts.
I don't talk much to guys about their secret fantasies but Yati, my cubby chubb female friend wanted to have 10 husbands!
I am bad because I talked to you about my darkest thoughts. You never know what others think. So my crime is because I am loud thinker, not because I acted upon the thoughts (well some of it).
Therefore honey my biggest crime to date is still stealing. I stole your innocence. That is why I hate people who gossips. They are thieves of innocence to me.
Do you notice, up to know I don't talk bad about others?
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