Should I continue to take the lead?
I don't think so. I think I just flow with my thoughts.
Basically what I want to do is merely being. Which means I don't want to do anything. I just want to sloth around.
Slothing means I just enjoy doing nothing.
So talking to you doesn't count as slothing.
My idea of slothing will be sitting inside CCC and chat with Al Araf 7:7.
I have too much time now that I have nothing to pursue. The only thing now is to pursue Virtual Perfection. Otherwise I keep on writing so that I can stay connected to you.
Actually I have something in my mind. I was thinking that I was being a douche bag with the whole Els thing.
Maybe I just deal with you only. Or even smaller, I just deal with myself.
Part *[] being is to just enjoy my own very existence. Just watch things passing me by. Back to being an observer.
* OK then honey, this is my observation then... I noticed there is no such thing as an ordinary man. Every man is extraordinary. The fact that he is able to continue to the next day and the following days shows that all able men are survivors.
Look at the beggar for example. The fact that he is still alive all these years begging shows that he had perfected the art of begging. Otherwise he will be dead by a certain number of days.
If we walk in the other person's shoes, then we realize that each individual is extraordinary.
As I was watching the Paris video, I realized that it is the man on the streets that make the city great; the ice cream peddlers, the artists, the musicians, the pedestrians, these are all the lifeblood of the city. It gives the city identity. They are not [] high powered, high profile people that work behind the glass buildings. Those people, we don't meet. It is the so called "ordinary" people that we see that shape the city.
Today, when I went to the electrical goods store, I met some more "ordinary" people. They were the sales assistants and the clerks. These are the people who form the backbone of the economy. I bet Sarah, if we probe into their lives, they are not that ordinary.
What about those who shaped history? Those foot soldiers, those street demonstrators, those land pioneers and even those who first to step out of Africa to spread all the way to Australia.
These people went through hardship and uncertainty driven by a sense of purpose. It's not the well off and the had it easy that colonized forests and far away lands. It's the "ordinary" people.
Take the "ordinary" people out of the equation and you don't have plantations, estates, railroads, industries, real estates and even jewelries. Therefore the "ordinary" is really extraordinary isn't it?
Have you ever wonder what is that extra? What is it that motivates a man to take a job chainsawing submerged trees underwater in a man made lake to turn them into timbers? What prompted a man to go deep into the depth of the forest to map borders in uncharted regions? Or even as simple as what enticed a man to become a garbage collector?
Take any job that is almost impossible like building a spectacular monastery on top of a mountain in a remote island, there is somebody who actually did it.
What drives man? Money is a small factor. That was not the motivation of those who died in war. Certainly not for those who sealed the nuclear reactor in Chernobyl.
This is my hypothesis: They are driven by the vision of a better life and they are doing the right thing.
If that is the case Sarah, to become extraordinary I must aim for a better life and I must know that I am on the right track.
Does it make sense to you baby? Look back at where we are right now. Isn't it the case for us too? Considering that we are "ordinary"?
Do you think the Polynesians will continue sailing West if they don't think they will encounter a better life and they are on the right track?
This is also applicable to criminals and crooks. They rationalize their action as right. Otherwise they will not take the risk unnecessarily.
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My issue Sarah is I had arrived at my destination. I am like a dog chasing a wheel and when the wheel stops, the excitement gone.
This same phenomena was what the astronauts experienced after they completed their space missions.
The only way around it is to wait for Ramadan to be over. Then I can start chasing another wheel all over again.
At present I am in a limbo. There's nothing left. I had pushed it to the brink.
So now I just slothing my life away. I will be like this for a week. Then once we past the festival mode, I will start on a new cycle.
I must say that we are at the tail end of the last S curve. It actually started in 1998 and ended in 2015. That is 17 years of my life we are talking about.
I think tonight I write an essay (see? I am all inspiring during Sound Journey) of how I want to live for the next 22 years.
Next posting...
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