Thursday, 13 June 2019

13/6/19 ***As I write

Baby, I am feeling melancholic today.  Seriously I feel like smoking.  That is the first sign of depression.

I feel down because I had lost my sense of purpose.  There is nothing more to achieve.  This is a cycle.  In a few days time I will be up again and I will be in sanguine mood.

That had been the pattern.  I [] you that before.  So you have to bear with my peaks and valleys.  If I am OK all the time, then I will not have the issue with Bipolar, will I?

That is my challenge.  It is not just physical, it is also biochemical.

I managed to refrain from smoking cigarettes and dope.  So that is good.  I still take a lot of sugar though.

So honey, I got a long way to go.  When depression hits me, I will be immobilized.

I think it is due to the loads of sugar I had been taking in Ramadan.

It's a journey Sarah.  I am at the gateway of old age.  So naturally I have all these teething issues I have to put up with.

Alas, I will keep moving to the right direction.  For sure I will keep on exercising and I will do 16/8 LCHF.  As much as possible I will avoid sugar and starch.  I will say no to the 3 Cs.  These are my daily markers.  You will probably get tired listening to me talking about them.

Well that is the price of being a wife.  You have to put up with the repetitive affirmations.

I want just relax today.  Nothing much to talk about anyway.  You probably get bored of me talking about the same old thing.

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