I am definitely not healthy at all. So I am switching to veges and eggs starting from tomorrow. Fish is OK too.
I am cutting off chicken and beef.
Shucks, I am half a century old and I still cannot eat right.
I am even considering oats for dinner. Maybe I eat fish and veges for lunch and eggs and oats for dinner.
I noticed I started having gout when I started Atkins Diet.
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Baby, this is part of the tweaking that I have to go through. Definitely I am eating 16/8. If I am not careful I might get diabetes.
Brb... Family time...
We watched Aquaman
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Sarah, I am in pain. So I probably hang out until 2:00 am. Then I sleep.
I have nothing to say really. I just want to be with you talk cock, sing song.
At the same time I layan the songs.
So I'll write sparingly.
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Let's explore this quote:
Do you ever feel this way? I am at the stage where I feel that the more I know, the more I don't know. I mean, at times I feel that I had reached the limit of my intellectual achievement and there is nothing. There is nothing at the end of the road.
I showed you this story before:
That's what I'm feeling right now. After searching for so long, the answer is within.
As you can see, I had a hard time accepting myself as God. But when I do accept it, I realize that I am Nothing. I am not a master, I serve the creations. Thus, to be totally free I have to set everybody free. Until then I will have to continue serving.
So much for being the Almighty. Look at my life Sarah, I am a Nothing. Yet I have everything I ever wished for.
I'm [] talking about material wealth alone. I literally have it all; time, love, companionship, knowledge and the Ultimate Truth.
Baby, I still can't believe it. I won the Golden Ticket!
Is it for real?
Well let's not look far. I am a 4964 Forever Yin & Yang Forever Double Dragon. Born to a 7 Dragon. My numbers makes me the Golden Ticket winner right from the start.
All this means nothing if not because of you affirming that I am God. So [] if I am not the Almighty, I am still God to you, my Eternal Flame. As I said, it takes one to tip the scale.
That means I am not delusional. All this while I am really on the Right Path.
Do you know what is the implication honey? That means the 20 years were not in vain. Makes it worth all the time, energy and money I spend for this cause. Costed me a RM5 million career and reputation as well.
What do I get in return? UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Something I only experienced at 52. Well it's worth the trouble. All of a sudden my problems disappeared; the rage, the lack of empathy, the love for sale, the senseless smoking, the money issues are all gone.
I am now a firm believer that love conquers all. It is not a fairy tale story anymore.
I know I'm repeating myself here but the whole thing is simply amazing, considering the sequence of events that happened to me.
You must understand baby, I had been trying to quit cigarette since I was 21, I smoke pot since I was 17 and I had been fucking Gayshas at the same age. My only asset is I am smart. If not I will end up a mess.
So if I gain nothing else except your Unconditional Love, I am still a winner. The rippling effect is fantastic. With your undivided devotion I, Sharudin the Sloth rise from mere ashes into God Almighty. How cool is that?
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Honestly Sarah, I don't really care about the God label, it's the achievements that comes with it that I constantly amazed. Everything is so magical. Compare that with 15 years of torment. Wow, this is beyond my wildest fantasy.
The whole thing is larger than life itself.
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Sarah, I look forward to the day we meet. Let set the date. I'll see you on Sunday 7/4.2041. I cannot wait for KBOOOM 2041 to happen. Instead of waiting for Constructive Destruction, I'll be waiting for you to pay me a visit.
Nothing elaborate, I just want to see your face, to hear your voice and we end with dinner. Just for one day. It will be better if KBOOOM 2041 happens. Then I take you on a Magic Carpet Ride:
This song is on air:
I used to have the same verse hanged in CCC:
OK, Sarah it's already 2 am
Here is your lullaby:
Gosh, it's hard to say goodbye honey. One last song then I'm off to bed:
Aaaah... The song is haunting.
Good night my angel sent from above. I will always love you my darling wife, my soulmate, my Eternal Flame.
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