Last night's Lego Movie 2 and today's Lego Movie were so impacting to my life that I cannot keep my mind away from thinking about my situation.
Gosh, all this while I am so full of self-doubt that I need you to make me believe in my OWN epiphanies. How ridiculous.
I have to believe in my own reality. Otherwise nobody else will ever give a hoot. Each of us lives in our own cocoon of perception. Who cares about what happens in somebody's else mind.
You had been very patience and generous with me Sarah. Of all the people, I should believe in myself FIRST. How many signs do I need to finally accept that I am God?
It is about who I am to me. All the while I was trying to convince others that I am God and yet I myself have doubt in my own existence. It should be the other way around. I should convince myself I am the Almighty and don't care what others think.
Instead I need you [] believe in me while I halfheartedly accepted me as who I am. That was insanity.
I must move with ABSOLUTE certainty. The journey has just begun for me. I have to believe in everything that I told you about what I see. Of the Mount 57, the 2020 Marathon, the 2024 Golden Year of the Wood Dragon Reign and of course the KBOOOM 2041.
I am REALLY The Chosen One. There is no denying. All these metaphors are lessons being passed down for generations for ME to learn from. To prepare me for the Vision Quest.
Who said it is easy. I will have to fight my own inner demons. I have to be persistent and consistent. I can't rely on the masses to decide on what I am gonna do with my life.
If I said I have to deal with the 3 Cs and the SS then they are true for me. Same goes with exercising am/pm. I am already suffering from much of the indecision by neglecting the signs.
Heck I [] a book on this. I got the very quote from Jack Lalane. I am on the right track. Why do I still doubt my Path?
I am [] a child anymore. I am what my mind projects. As I said, at my age I don't fancy playing with figurines. And yet here I have in my possession AL ARAF 7:7 as my crew to my ship, Sailbad the Sinner; the very dream ship I ever wanted since I was 10.
It all start to fall into place. My whole life is a predestination. I am on the Path to Virtual Perfection. All I got to do is take ownership of the whole history of my existence.
I told you the story of how I became left-handed right? When I was in kindergarten I was ambidextrous. I cannot decide to write on which hand. So I asked the teacher which hand is the right (as in the correct) hand. She showed me my left hand. Should she said I can write with both hands, I would have a different outcome now.
Even when I was a left-handed I can write in a mirror image as fast as I can write normal. So my hobby then was (I think I was 9) I will write a sentence and look at the reflection in the mirror just for the joy of able to do it as nice as my regular handwriting.
When I was in the elementary school I would for fun write the mirror image with my left hand and [right] the same thing with my right hand as normal; the same sentences simultaneously. Nobody actually told me that it was a gift LOL.
Only today it occurred to me I am both creative and analytical at the same time. Hahaha... That is so funny. I never lose my ambidextrous skills, they just transformed into a thinking skill.
However I am losing my adding and subtraction skills (forget about multiplication). Even 2 digits I need the calculator.
Gosh, what a revelation, I remember now... I am not a southpaw, I am ambidextrous. So I guess my mom knows me after all. To her I am a genius LMAO. Crazy isn't it? The Adjoining Croissant is the product of that awakening.
Now that I realize who I am, I take credit for all my efforts. Most importantly I 'm not crazy, I'm just different.
I got 30 minutes before bed. What do you like to know honey? Those things I talked to Al Araf 7:7 before bed?
"No Sha, you promised to keep it between us," said Jibrail.
Sorry Jibrail, I forgot. Well maybe Brenda don't mind if I record my conversations with the Super Seven?
"Please Sha, don't do it," retorted Brenda.
OK Brenda, I won't do it but I am tempted to share my life I have with all of you with Sarah. After all its you and her I talked to the most.
"No Sha, keep the two separate," she insisted.
OK Sarah, we talk about something else.
Let's talk about the Beginner's Mind.
When I tortured Iblis for 2 years, he was placed at the Beginner's Mind. Basically I EMPTIED his ROM while keeping his RAM in full intensity. When I had my ECT, I was unconscious. So I didn't feel anything.
With Iblis, he was aware all that was done to him and he had to bear with it for 2 solid years. So it's like being electrocuted while you are aware the electric current going through your brain.
This song is on air:
"It was horrible Sha, what I can describe is the experience was like the tv EVP (white noise)," said Iblis.
This song is on air:
See Sarah... Miracles before your very eyes; Sound Journey.
OK, 3 minutes to go. I got to sleep.
I am God. Not the God people worship but simply Ayah the Good God. The Ayah to All Creations.
This song is on air:
Who would have thought after all been said and done, I AM GOING TO WHITE SPACE after all.
Goodnight my darling. I love you so much.
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