27/6/19 ###Day 16. My lay around and do nothing day

I will win 1 day at a time:

1. Wake up latest 7:00 am - Woke up 6.50 am
2. Exercise in the morning - Left ankle inflamed
3. Eat 16/8  LCHF  starting 12:00 pm - Ate carbs for breakfast   Ate Super 7 and Nasi Van
4. Do House Chores - I just want to laze today
5. Exercise in the afternoon - No go
6. Eat LCHF/Oats at 8:00 pm - Ate banana leaf
7. Sleep at 11.00 pm - Sleep at 12:00 am

That's the minimum to win the day.

Can't exercise today.  The inflammation is still there.  On top of that, there is a certain sensation the comes with sleeping late and  waking up early.  I still feel groggy and somehow hungry.  I ate anchovy bun.  I am thinking of having the Super Combo Nasi Lemak followed by a slight urge to smoke cigarette.

Not a good sign.  That means my dopamine is low.  It's because I am low in sugar.  The funny thing is I had peanut butter and sandwich last night.

The groggy feeling makes me want to eat carbs.  I counter that by eating peanut butter and crackers and 3-in-1 coffee.

Hang on...  Let me make some.

I need to snap out of the blues.  I should not give in.

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Today is definitely Sharudin the Sloth day.  I ate so much carbs but the peanut butter and coffee feel so good.  As long as I don't smoke cigarettes.

Until I manage to rise above the current standard, I will still have to juggle between the peaks and valleys.  My main issue is to maintain peak state all the time.

I believe it can be done by rising the standard of my physical health.  Bear in mind that this journey is balancing between diet and exercise.  Having said that, diet is 80% of the issue while exercise is only 20%.

Sleep is important too.  Without proper sleep, diet and exercise will be disrupted.

I guess I cannot deny that this Bipolar thing is still lurking waiting for an opportunity to show its ugly face.

While the hypomania and the mania makes me feel good, I am seen as a crazy person by the general population.

Therefore my best option is still writing in the Blog.  Here I can observe my mood swing closely without effecting anybody.  I can be as excited as I want to be or as depressed as I can get.  It doesn't matter to others.

What do I need really?  I need to feel good.

How do I do that?  Food.  Cigarette. Exercise.  I think for the time being I just do moderate exercise, which is by walking.  Too much too soon creates a void after the peak experience.  At the same time I need to regulate sugar and sleep.

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