With cigarette I don't know how to stop and I end up being a chain smoker. When I smoked I cannot do anything else. I am hooked to it as a drug addict hooked to the narcotics.
So I got 10 months before I meet BJ and RR again. By then I hope I am off the hook for good. There is no benefit of smoking. It is just an old habit I got to get rid.
Now cigarettes are getting more expensive. It's the worst hook of the three.
I need to move away from Nicorette too. These things are unnecessary if I am physically fit and mentally healthy. I only want to smoke cigarettes when I feel terrible and I need to boost my mood.
Dope makes me crazy. When I smoke dope, my judgement got effected. In 5 of the 6 occasions I was warded, I smoked dope. I have to TOTALLY eliminate dope from my life.
When I smoke dope, I become lazy. I eat a lot too. Then I become tired and I sleep a lot. As long as I don't smoke dope I think I am normal. Once I have one joint, I go crazy for days and weeks even. I will start having mania.
So dope is certainly out of the question.
The final one is cunt. I had been lucky so far. No STD. I however is not going to break the record. It burned hole in my pocket too. For every fuck, that is one shirt or shoes or perfume that I have to forgo.
I rather like today have a RM10 fruit juice or maybe a nice meal or a new running shorts than go for a fuck.
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What is the alternative to the vices? Right now it is the 3-in-1 Coffee. I got to have a better alternative. As of now I can think of Moringa. Couple that with an active lifestyle, I will be on my way to be an Athlete4Life.
Moringa and butter are my best options. Both make me feel invigorated.
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Both cigarettes and cannabis make me feel down in the long run.
What I do is I get rid of sugar first and still eat rice for lunch.
Note: Had Moringa and pineapple just now. Very nice feeling indeed.
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I need to be addicted to the right things; healthy food and physical activities.
I need to be thin and fast to feel good about myself. I don't need the 3 Cs. 55 is my cut off age. No more mischief after this. I stay clean for life. Luckily I don't drink, do drugs and gamble.
I need to get rid of Nicorettes too. That disrupt my microbiome and still a money pit.
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In a way Blogging is an addiction too. I rather be blogging tha[t] have a social life. I guess we are addicted to one thing or another. Perhaps if it doesn't harm you and it doesn't cost you money, that will be OK.
I mean, I rather be addicted to running than eating for example.
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