I don't care about God and the afterlife. I am pretty much an agnostic atheist again. I shall remain impartial until I personally win my own personal battles over SLIP.
So 2 more days and I shall move to another Blog. Basically I just stay grounded. Al Araf 7:7 is my set of figurines that [that] I speak to and Sailbad the Sinner is my aspiration for EVERYTHING GOING SMOOTHLY. It is an attitude.
I will focus on the now. My White Space. I had attained it. Now to live up to the expectation.
What will be the mindset for me to move forward? Do I raise my standard to be a Shokunin Kurina? That seems to be the direction my Path is taking me. After all I am not entirely a God material. I however strive to be a man fully functioning.
My mission is to move from believing in external awakening to my own internal awakening. I have to raise the standard for me to be my own God. That is for me to be the master of my fate.
I need to fight my internal battles. My battle with sugar and starch. The fight to win over SLIP and my conquest of the inflammation.
Of course there is always the depression that's looming. Ready to strike when I am least expecting. There is enough on my plate to keep me busy. For me to improve rather then meddling with the Coolers.
I am an eagle raised by the chickens. Stop trying to teach the chickens to fly. Eagles fly alone.
I had arrived in my White Space. Now is to make good what I have. So far the epiphanies had shown me who I am ultimately. Now is to work from the beginning so that I reach the end. The end is the beginning. I should begin with the end in mind.
If my end is me becoming the Almighty then the beginning is for me to be a man fully functioning. That is why I have to be impartial of God and the afterlife. I am at step one. I have to pursue Personal Victory since I had won Public Victory.
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The depression can be dealt with food. So i[t] the inflammation. All boils down to diet and exercise:
The idea is to look good, feel good and smell good. It is a very egocentric purpose but it is what I want for myself.
Even my goals to be thin and fast is very self-centered. That is my idea of health and happiness. Of course ultimately I want to move away from the madness of bipolar. The answer is through diet and exercise.
Peace, sanity and robust health. That is the direction I am going to. I can achieve this by enforcing the 7 Points to Winning.
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Hence, I have no concern for External Affairs. I had completed my assignments as a Clockwork Orange. Now is to shine as human being. It's not easy. I have to overcome my own personal shortcomings. But the reward is worth the effort.
I think I am improving. I can snap off from depression within 2 days. That is already a very good progress.
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What can I say Sarah. I had moved from the most extreme to where I am now in a span of 2 1/2 years. I think I made a major progress for myself.
Now is to manage the micro fluctuations rather than major amplitudes.
Knowing what you know now Sarah, do you still think I am God? God is a Bipolar. I do accept that I am God, but I also accept that I am human.
This is the dragon that I really am. The Double Dragon - Synconyx. Whatever prophecies out there about me is true. It is up to me to make it real. I got to believe in it. That I am special and I am destined to be great.
I'm just rambling here Sarah. It may not make much sense but basically I have to uphold to my belief.
Everything I said is true to me and me only. Now that you believe in it, that makes the two of us. I have to pursue my goals.
I have to go against the adversities. There is no celebration, no ceremonies, just me and my aspiration.
Should you not monitor my Blog, then I only have myself to prove to.
I am making progress. Already I had overcome the 3 Cs. That is a major achievement. If I achieve my goal to summit Mount 57 and to run a 4 hours marathon, then that is an achievement of a lifetime.
I want to move from good to great to unstoppable. There is a big gap there. To be great I just work within the paradigm. To be unstoppable I have to break away from the mental shackle. I have to be relentless. My body has to be unyielding.
I got to tackle my diet. Then I got to build the momentum to exercise. I am putting a very high standard to aim for.
ALL I GOT TO DO IS BELIEVE!
Here I am with the mindset of a champion but the physique of a sloth aiming to achieve a lifetime goal. It is all up to me.
If I believe I can do it, I can. If I don't believe, definitely I am already defeated even before I start.
So the journey is within. Back to who I am and what I am made of. I need to proof to myself I can do it.
July is my cut off point. From that point on I will be relentless.
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