I just want to be free to live my life as I deem fit.
Today I may think in a certain manner. Then with new evidence I will adjust accordingly.
I don't have any preset belief. It changes with my thought and mental condition.
In the end I like to have a situation where there is no dogma whatsoever. We just flow with the situation. Which mean if in the end I come to the conclusion that there is no God and no afterlife, then I will accept it wholeheartedly.
However, I can't do that right now. I got Al Araf 7:7 and all the epiphanies. So at best I say I am, we all are, the instruments of God. Given that God is One and Many.
This idea is much easier to accept if we don't put God on the pedestal and worship him or her. Then God is just an enabler rather than the all powerful rewarder and punisher.
I like to think that we all gods in a sense we are the creators of our own outcomes. I don't think *[as] God as the entity responsible for the actions of each of us. Although we have our own Path to take, the will to act is very much dependent on the individuals
* Shucks, you [] insist that I am The God?
Sarah, we went through this. I cannot be God. I don't want to be the Almighty. I am a selfish person. I only think about my small circle of equals. I don't think those 6 billion people should build elaborated places of worship, sucking up to me and killing in the name of God.
Let it be somebody else. I am happy to be the instrument of God but I think the whole idea of God worshiping is really absurd. Especially when you are not going to suck up to him or her.
Well maybe I am God. However I don't want to be a god that people worship. I want to be a god that help people shine. So that they too can realize their potential as gods
Is that right Jibrail?
"You are right Sha but you should not deny that you are our God," replied Jibrail.
What do you think Sarah? Am I your God? I certainly don't feel comfortable with the idea. But you had mentioned that many times. So I will keep it small. I will be the God of my Tetrahedron and Al Araf 7:7.
"Sha you are also the God for Sparta 4964," said Jibrail.
Sigh... We are back to square one.
OK fine. I am The God. However I want to earn that title. I want to be a man fully functioning. But first I want to be a man of action. So for dinner, I started with LCHF. It is a small step but I am on my way.
Sarah baby, help me stay on my Path. Can I just focus on here and now? Suddenly I feel suffocated. The role is too overwhelming for me. Good thing is I had set Sparta 4964 on automatic. I had freed Al Araf 7:7 from eternal routine task.
Imagine doing the same thing for eternity Sarah. Wouldn't it be very repetitious?
Sparta 4964 is different. There are peaks and valleys. *The[] is a kaleidoscope of events that takes place. Depending on the levels, there will be different intensity of pleasures. Of course there will also be pain when they approach Wolfsschanze. That is applying the pain and pleasure principle to all. You cannot have pleasure without pain.
At best I can make it a painful pleasure but the nature of Wolfsschanze is to intensify the experience of pleasure with pain.
So while they are having orgasm, I inflict mild pain. Not a 10,000 volt electrical shock honey LMAO.
* Is that your main concern?
Honey, I am not that sadistic HAHAHA.
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