I am actually bogged down with some Customer Service matters today. I hate the one where we have to chat with the rep. Time wasted and the issue not resolved. It became worse.
I am back to my routine again. I am proud to say that I skipped dinner tonight.
I will also make a point of sleeping by 12:00 am tonight.
Nothing much to talk about really. Now I listen to 987 Singapore. The songs are fresher,
Hey Sarah, what exactly that you do? Is your job to monitor me only or do you monitor many others?
I am so curious about you honey. Nowadays you are away quite a bit. What I want to know is if there is a cut off point that you have dealing with me.
Obviously there is an end to everything. The best case scenario is you get promoted. Then there will be no more interventions.
Another possibility is that you already got what you wanted and that's it then, sayonara.
Actually it doesn't really matter. I will always write to you. I know once a while you will take a pe[a]k.
Nowadays I know you will check in at 12:00 am my time. So you are sleeping the regular hours again.
Baby, we went through a lot together. I can understand if you decided to move on. It is however a great delight for me if you stay on.
Sarah my darling, we had fun didn't we? It is only the part I have to play my role as God that I don't feel comfortable.
I still feel that I am just an ordinary person. And yet I follow through to see where it ends. If I am God, I did my part. If I am not then, well I went through the motion to the very point where there is nothing to pursue.
This is that point. I have pushed all the way to the brink. Nothing left. I had reach the limit of my imagination.
My conclusion is either I am God or there is no God. That is the pinnacle. With a flip of the switch I can be either or.
So perhaps the question is not that relevant. So what if I am God? Same thing, so what if there is no God?
If I am God, I was a Good God. If there is no God, then I just lose some good sleep figuring the Adjoining Croissant.
Whatever the case may be everything counts but nothing matters.
As I said, my commodity is time. So far I make use of the time to determine the rightness of my direction.
In that sense, I am being productive. I filled my time to shape my future. If I am God, then I have a fantastic future. If not then I must say that the experience is mind opening.
I want to move away from this God, no God question. Since you are the only one who accepted me as God, then I accept that I am God. Again, my definition of God is a man fully functioning. I don't see myself as the omnipresent, omnipotent and omniscience God.
At the same time I am unconcern with the whole thing. Rather that spend time on a looping question, I just take what I got and roll with the answer.
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