Monday, 10 June 2019

10/6/19 ^^^Personal Log June Entry 001

I am on a borderline depression.  I cannot see beyond my 4 walls.

I am so tired and lethargic.  My only excitement is eating.

I need to change my state SOON.

Forget about being God.  I am happy if I can get my momentum back again.

Moments like this makes me realize I am just a guy with a mental condition.

It's the food.  The food changes the brain chemicals.  It's what makes me larger than life and reduced me to a mere gnat.

So Sarah, you still believe I am God?  Some kind of god I am huh?

Maybe I am not God. I am just the conduit.  Once my job is done I am back to my ordinary self again.

All I want is to be normal.  Perhaps now that I had done my part, I am free to be myself again.

All this while I am only acting on behalf of God.

I don't know...  And I don't care.  I had done my bit.

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