8/6/19 ###Harder to quit sugar than cigarettes

It's not that I have low resistance to sugar, it's just that sugar is readily available.

Note:  Malaysia has the slowest marathon runners in the world.

I ate the pineapple tart, peanut butter with crackers and 3-in-1 coffee.  That what's available.  Hence they become my SEE food.

I have to start eating healthy again.

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If I just focus on being a man fully functioning, then my theme will be diet and exercise.  That's all.  I basically have no concern for other things especially religion and politics.

I can do that.

Actually Sarah, I only have to think about my daily progress.  The measurement is me being thin and fast.

It is better than me minding External Affairs.  They don't contribute to my overall well being.

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The thought now is I have some money.  What to buy?

I should be thinking to save the money and earn interest.  I want to use the money next year for my dental checkup.

OK, I had achieved my target to save RM1 k in my unit trust.  Now I should set my target to set RM1 k limit for my savings account.

I had bought all that I need to buy.  I even have 3 shoes that I didn't wear.

I got to stay clear from dope.  When I looked at Rohaizad, I can see he is being delusional.  I too was delusional even without dope.  So imagine me on dope.  I was pretty messed up.

So until next Ramadan, no cigarettes and no dope.

Two of the most crucial things to practice are diet and exercise.  However I also need to have Financial Mastery to be self sustaining.

First thing first:

• Calibrate sleep
• Eat 16/8 LCHF
• No sugar and starch
• Exercise daily
• Save money
• No cigarettes and dope

Boy, do I feel ordinary.  And yet everybody is extraordinary.

I guess I got my wish.  I am just an ordinary guy.  Today I feel so ordinary.  I am fighting obesity and inertia.  Not some superlative force but rather daily occurrence.

So all this while am I living in a fantasy world?

Well Sarah, something miraculous happened on Hari Raya.  We were on the way to the graveyard.  When we reached there it started pouring heavily.  It was a real downpour.  We waited in the car for 10 minutes with no chance for the rain to stop.  Amazingly as the rain started it abruptly stopped.  For the first time we didn't bring the water bottle to pour water onto the graves.

So miracles still happen around me.

I am ready to put the past behind.  Let's move forward.  No more Sparta 4964 for me.  It is about here and now.

I AM living in White Space as it is.  This is the life I chose.  To be as ordinary as possible.  Well not that ordinary.  I still got Al Araf 7:7.

I guess this chart is true then:

Come to think of it, managing expectations is about managing states.

The only person that can tolerate this swing is you.  Now bear in mind, all this while it is the neurotransmitter in action.  Nothing changes, just the meaning that change.

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