>>>#4/6/19 This is my stand

I'm not going to give a hoot about God, the afterlife and Judgment of Heaven.

I just want to live in the present .  That means I have to live responsibly.

From now on I just speak my mind [mind].

Let's focus on being a man fully functioning.

All this while I was doing the crazy things because I was doing External Affairs.  If I only think of myself, I have no issue at all.  Sure my thoughts are abnormal but they are normal to me.  It's when I deal with the  outside world that it becomes weird.

So from now on I just be with you alone.

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Sarah honey, I'm happy being here with you.  So I think I stick to the winning formula.  I tried may formulas in the past.  What works is if the relationship is reciprocal.

I think I do away with all one way relationships.

Oh yeah, fuck 2020 Marathon.  I'll be happy if I weigh 65 kg and can run 11 km Hill every Saturday.

No more of those events involving people.  I just run my own race.  I concentrate on enjoying my run and be as economical as possible.  The person I want to run with is BJ.  Not the rest of the crowd.

I want to free flow.  First I want to be thin.  I want to get rid of the gout.

It is not about spending exorbitantly to enter races,  It about clocking the miles.

I got to live according to my age.  I am 55 this year.

I should not be chasing after a 27 years old and running marathons.  If I can do the 11 km hill every week that will be great.

I should do these:

Phase I:  Running 3 times a week

Phase II:  Running and alternate with swimming

Phase III:  Add elliptical

Phase IV:  Add Kettlebell

Phase V:  Add Skipping

Phase VI: Add Cycling

That completes my Emperor's Routine.

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I should not be setting goals that are too high like trying to hit 57 kg in 6 months.  I should target that in a year.  Even that requires discipline, persistence and consistency.

My priority for this year is to build the momentum.  Once I get that, I then can stay consistent.  Only then I aim for a half marathon.  Even that I just do it on my own rather than entering races.  I should save whenever possible.

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